I just picked up this book the other day and have already been deeply touched by its anointing to reveal the Father’s love. I’ve heard of Jack Frost from my friend a couple years back but recently, I’ve just been feeling that the Lord is taking me even deeper into His love for me as my Father so I picked it up.
If this is something you’re wanting to go deeper into, I highly recommend checking this book out.
I also found some teaching videos of his on YouTube. They’re really good too! Hope these resources blesses your heart and takes you deep into Abba’s embrace!
I’ve sometimes thought it was a blessing that my dads (both my stepdad and dad) are so uninvolved in my life. My mother’s way of loving me was enough in one sense to invade all the empty spaces my dads left behind both in a positive and negative sense. I needed at least a few parents to leave me alone and just let me be, or so I thought.
But as I see other fathers in our community love and care for their children, the longings for the Father’s love are awakened. As I enter marriage, I see my own resentments toward my fathers manifest in the angry words and impatience I have towards Dustin. How quickly I would jump to the assumption and accuse Dustin of not caring or wanting to help me because that’s what I felt towards my fathers.
One of our friends from Switzerland, often I would see him in the prayer room with his adorable French speaking daughters. Whenever they leaned over to whisper something in his ears or lean in for a hug, he would happily indulge them no matter what he was in the middle of.
As the day for our departure for Taiwan draws near, my heart’s becoming increasingly emotional. Yet as I prayed and sought the Lord, I was unable to understand the source of such tumult in my heart. I felt like Dorothy in Wizard of Oz, confounded as a tornado sweeps up everything around me, swallowed up in the mess.
As I look back to the past seven years I’ve been at IHOP-KC, I can’t help but notice how difficult and painful my time here as been. Within the past few years, I’ve been stripped of many things, my heart broken by the loss of my sister, vision, dream, friends, church family, who I thought I was, my self-esteem, my pride and the list goes on. I didn’t feel offense in my heart, but I longed to know what it was all for? I needed closure of some sort for this chapter of my life.
Slowly the Lord unfolded His perspective of this tornado twisting in my heart through a verse,
"This is the Christian way of “opposing” someone. When you are trying to motivate people by urging them to see their riches and love in Christ, then you personally are pointing to their value and dignity as you appeal. But when you try to motivate people by threatening them, you will probably feel little respect for them as you do so, and they will (rightly) sense that you are not on their side. When we use God’s grace as a motivator, we can criticize sharply and directly, but the other person will generally be able to perceive that we are nonetheless for them."
— Keller, Timothy (2013-02-10). Galatians For You (God’s Word For You) Kindle Edition.
Welcome! Thanks for stopping by. I'm Sunny (Hu) Horstmann and this is my journey from a broken-winged bird to healing and wholeness with God. I love my husband, my two dogs (Scooter and Happy) and the nation I was born in (Taiwan). I'm thankful that you let me process and spew here :)